Sälen today
Yes so today me my sister and our friends are going to Sälen!! its going to be ver fun:) i hope...but its never boring when were hanging out anyway soo;P
So the last days I havent done so much...been thinking..i dont understand why im thinking so much when i get home to sweden again...its incain...i dont want to think about you or us (but there is no us in that way just friendship) but i do..gaah...get out of my head!!
Yesterday we were at my sisters house:)..I was playing guitarr hero with her children haha they were so much better then me:P..and they are 9 and 12:P...but they are funny:) soo cute:)
hmm yeah yeah guess i dont have anything more to write now...im tired i guess im going to bed for a while again!!..its warm there!!
Bye...
So the last days I havent done so much...been thinking..i dont understand why im thinking so much when i get home to sweden again...its incain...i dont want to think about you or us (but there is no us in that way just friendship) but i do..gaah...get out of my head!!
Yesterday we were at my sisters house:)..I was playing guitarr hero with her children haha they were so much better then me:P..and they are 9 and 12:P...but they are funny:) soo cute:)
hmm yeah yeah guess i dont have anything more to write now...im tired i guess im going to bed for a while again!!..its warm there!!
Bye...
So that was christmas
And that was that....
I got alot of presents stuff that I wanted and needed!!
I woke up this morning when i heard my dog utside my room, i got up and my sisters woke up and then we opened presents, then we went for a walk, my sisters the dogs and mum,,after that we played a game:p...i got a cow that your supposed to have toiletpaper on and a champange bottle!!!
Then we opend more presents and i got alot of things...then i went to my love and did everything i was suppose to do!!
I went in the shower...thats not easy when you have one arm:P...then me and my sister went to my grandma och grandpa and there were my cousins and aunt:)..it was fun got some good food and then more presents:)
And now im home sitting here and thinking about lot of things....im tired of thinking...
The operation went well anyway!!...and i can move almost like before but it hurts sometimes and it feels wierd....but i guess it feels better after a couple of weeks...!!!
yeah yeah..in a few weeks ill go back to germany mixed feelings I TELL YOU....not that i want to stay here all my life but ....because of a thing i dont really want to go back to germany either
And yeah..when we went home from kristinehamn (where my grandparents live) we went to the graveyard to say hi to my sweet friend Carro who i miss sooo much..ive been thinking of her so much and all the time..im sad all i want is for her to be next to me and talk to me....
Then we lit a candle for m grandma that died in august....i miss you too;(
bye
I got alot of presents stuff that I wanted and needed!!
I woke up this morning when i heard my dog utside my room, i got up and my sisters woke up and then we opened presents, then we went for a walk, my sisters the dogs and mum,,after that we played a game:p...i got a cow that your supposed to have toiletpaper on and a champange bottle!!!
Then we opend more presents and i got alot of things...then i went to my love and did everything i was suppose to do!!
I went in the shower...thats not easy when you have one arm:P...then me and my sister went to my grandma och grandpa and there were my cousins and aunt:)..it was fun got some good food and then more presents:)
And now im home sitting here and thinking about lot of things....im tired of thinking...
The operation went well anyway!!...and i can move almost like before but it hurts sometimes and it feels wierd....but i guess it feels better after a couple of weeks...!!!
yeah yeah..in a few weeks ill go back to germany mixed feelings I TELL YOU....not that i want to stay here all my life but ....because of a thing i dont really want to go back to germany either
And yeah..when we went home from kristinehamn (where my grandparents live) we went to the graveyard to say hi to my sweet friend Carro who i miss sooo much..ive been thinking of her so much and all the time..im sad all i want is for her to be next to me and talk to me....
Then we lit a candle for m grandma that died in august....i miss you too;(
bye
Home in Sweden
Soo now im in sweden:)...feels good to be home for more than a weekend so i dont have to hurry up with everything!!!
Came on friday and it was full house here:P my sister had a xmastable?! with her friends....and on saturday my mum had her birthday we gave her presents and then celibrated her..my oma opa tante und cousin came here for a few ours....
i went to my love and toke care of him for a while!!
Then my best Magnus came:)...and the whole family ate togheter...then we started to drink:p...wine beer shots and everything hahah it was so much fun:)...after a while isa came and that was so fun:)...at twelve we went out and it was great:)...
today i havent done anything......Louise came and woke me up at 08.00 this morning:P...FUN i feel asleep at 06.00:P hahah so i was still drunk when we went to my love:P..but it was fun:P...i wasent really walking straight but::Phahahah then we went for a ride:)..i took 20 minutes walk and Lousie was riding and then Louise ride and i walked:)..it was so great to do that again:)...he is so lovely:) wonderful the best guy ever my star:)..but now i cant take care of him so much cause im getting my operation tomorrow...but Louise will come with me so i can visit him:)
yea yeah so tomorrow im getting the operation im starting to be a little bit nervous now but i can make it:)...i have done worse things:P
yeah yeah so today ive been home all day and that was great I havent done anything and its been so calme here:)..LOVELY and mum made me food:)..its nice to be home!!!
Byyyyeee
Came on friday and it was full house here:P my sister had a xmastable?! with her friends....and on saturday my mum had her birthday we gave her presents and then celibrated her..my oma opa tante und cousin came here for a few ours....
i went to my love and toke care of him for a while!!
Then my best Magnus came:)...and the whole family ate togheter...then we started to drink:p...wine beer shots and everything hahah it was so much fun:)...after a while isa came and that was so fun:)...at twelve we went out and it was great:)...
today i havent done anything......Louise came and woke me up at 08.00 this morning:P...FUN i feel asleep at 06.00:P hahah so i was still drunk when we went to my love:P..but it was fun:P...i wasent really walking straight but::Phahahah then we went for a ride:)..i took 20 minutes walk and Lousie was riding and then Louise ride and i walked:)..it was so great to do that again:)...he is so lovely:) wonderful the best guy ever my star:)..but now i cant take care of him so much cause im getting my operation tomorrow...but Louise will come with me so i can visit him:)
yea yeah so tomorrow im getting the operation im starting to be a little bit nervous now but i can make it:)...i have done worse things:P
yeah yeah so today ive been home all day and that was great I havent done anything and its been so calme here:)..LOVELY and mum made me food:)..its nice to be home!!!
Byyyyeee
Eyecandy;)
Soo...
Im back again from a weekend in Graz it was great!!!
Today was Morten sick so i was home with him!! it was cool but im so tired all the time and i dont know why..i guess its because i know that im soon going home and get of work for two weeks!!!
So when my aunt comes home im going to bed sleeping for ahour or so:P
And now im at Björns place we just ate pizza and playing wee....Basti sucks and im great!!;P
I was at judo practise yesterday:)...And my eyecandy was there;)...He said that he was looking forward to fight with me..and we did and we laught and look at eatchother...hihi
and when i went out he went out and we talked a bit:)...he is sooo cute!!..and hesmiles at me all the time...maybe he is flirting;)..who knows...And when i said that i had to pack on thursday cause im going home he walked to me and ask if im not coming back!!!...But i told him that i was coming back in january;)
yeah we will see what happends there;P...maybe he flirts even more when i come back HÖHÖ...
So now i have to goo
sweden on friday YAAAY!!!
Bye
Im back again from a weekend in Graz it was great!!!
Today was Morten sick so i was home with him!! it was cool but im so tired all the time and i dont know why..i guess its because i know that im soon going home and get of work for two weeks!!!
So when my aunt comes home im going to bed sleeping for ahour or so:P
And now im at Björns place we just ate pizza and playing wee....Basti sucks and im great!!;P
I was at judo practise yesterday:)...And my eyecandy was there;)...He said that he was looking forward to fight with me..and we did and we laught and look at eatchother...hihi
and when i went out he went out and we talked a bit:)...he is sooo cute!!..and hesmiles at me all the time...maybe he is flirting;)..who knows...And when i said that i had to pack on thursday cause im going home he walked to me and ask if im not coming back!!!...But i told him that i was coming back in january;)
yeah we will see what happends there;P...maybe he flirts even more when i come back HÖHÖ...
So now i have to goo
sweden on friday YAAAY!!!
Bye
AT my Sweetie in Graz
Yeah im here:)...And its wonderful to be with my Sweetie and best friend again!!
I went with the trin yesterday morning..it didnt even feel fare!;)..changed train 3 times and then i stood there in Graz hauptbahnhof!!!...I couldnt send a mesage and couldnt call Hanna so i didnt now what to do..and she couldnt call me:P...so just when i was thinking about going in and ask if i could borrow the fun the sweetest girl in black hair and purple jacket ran to me and hugged me:D
and i was so happy it feelt like everything i was sad about left my buddy:)...its so fun t see her again:)
So we went home to her place its ince here..but its really hard to understand the austrian deutsch, but ill manige:P..
Fredde asked us if we wanted to come with him and some other guys out....but we stayed here looked at "greveholm" and just chilled it was so great just talked about everything we'v been up to lately and yeah:)...everything and then Hanna feel asleep...:)
And now we´v been awake for a while..Hanna is taking a shower and im going to do that to soon!!! then were going down town, eat something look around take alot of pics...and yeah just have fun...and tonight i dont know whats happening:)...and tomorrow i'll go home to deutschland again...but the best ting i s when i come home to sweden Hanna comes home to so i'll be able to see her there to:)
we did facel maskes yesterday hahahhaha so funny...we took pics you can see them when im home again haha so funny
bye bye
I went with the trin yesterday morning..it didnt even feel fare!;)..changed train 3 times and then i stood there in Graz hauptbahnhof!!!...I couldnt send a mesage and couldnt call Hanna so i didnt now what to do..and she couldnt call me:P...so just when i was thinking about going in and ask if i could borrow the fun the sweetest girl in black hair and purple jacket ran to me and hugged me:D
and i was so happy it feelt like everything i was sad about left my buddy:)...its so fun t see her again:)
So we went home to her place its ince here..but its really hard to understand the austrian deutsch, but ill manige:P..
Fredde asked us if we wanted to come with him and some other guys out....but we stayed here looked at "greveholm" and just chilled it was so great just talked about everything we'v been up to lately and yeah:)...everything and then Hanna feel asleep...:)
And now we´v been awake for a while..Hanna is taking a shower and im going to do that to soon!!! then were going down town, eat something look around take alot of pics...and yeah just have fun...and tonight i dont know whats happening:)...and tomorrow i'll go home to deutschland again...but the best ting i s when i come home to sweden Hanna comes home to so i'll be able to see her there to:)
we did facel maskes yesterday hahahhaha so funny...we took pics you can see them when im home again haha so funny
bye bye
Fin
I thought this text was nice...!!
Rickard ist krank heute so ich muss zuhause bleiben!!!
But it dosent matter i didnt want to go to school today anyway its nice to be home with Rickard he is in the sofa...and listening to a tape...before we watched pippi langstrumpf:)..hehe it was fun!!But it was in deutsch but i understood everything:)...i understand everything when i read now to:)..or almost it feels great!!:)
so now i have to cook lunch for us:)
Then i dont know what were going to do....
Wenn ich nicht mehr da bin, geh' du den Weg für mich
Lebst du für uns beide, und wein' nicht mehr um mich
Wenn ich nicht mehr da bin, bleibst nicht steh'n
Ich wart' auf dich, am ende der Zeit
bis wir uns wiederseh'n
understand?!
bye
2 years ago
So today was a really bad day for me..last night i couldnt sleep i just lay in bed and starred in the wall....i looked at the clock and it was 01.00 i tryied to sleep but nothing....03.00 i went up to drink water....and thenn i read some....and then at 05.30 i feel asleep..or that was the last time i looked at the clock anyway!!
I knew what was wrong when i woke up...and im so sick of it....
It was two years ago Denise TWO FUCKING YEARS.....but that was the day my life changed.....i get sad cause i think about how sad i was two years ago....how much i didnt want to do anything....and a couple of weeks ago i thought it was changing...that i actually was getting better and happy for real....but that was just imagination i guess...cause this saturday I got sad again...i understood that ive actually started to like a guy...who wasent my ex boyfriend...and i thought that was great im finally moving on...and maybe this is right maybe this thing could work...but NOO
I think im not meent to be happy...i think im not meent to have a boyfriend or someone who likes me..i think im just supposed to be friend with everyone or not everyone but a few.....
i should be alone...forever and not even try to get anything started and that what im going to do now....
Im sick of being left when i think that it could work and i start to show how i feel...im sick of guys telling me that i dont have to be scared cause they wont hurt me....im sick of them SICK SICK SICK...i dont want anything to do with them
i feel alone so alone and all i want to do is scream and cry...ive been walking around like a zombie today..and all i want to do is crawl down in my bed and stay there for ever.....im going to do that when i come home to Sweden...I never wanted to go to Sweden before but now i cant wait to go home,....to my bed to my tv and just stay there.....im so tired i just want to sleep and turn back time a couple of years...like 6 then i would do so many different things......
But yeah...im back in sqaure one...but now im never going to let my self be fooled again....no more guys no more anything just...something els
I knew what was wrong when i woke up...and im so sick of it....
It was two years ago Denise TWO FUCKING YEARS.....but that was the day my life changed.....i get sad cause i think about how sad i was two years ago....how much i didnt want to do anything....and a couple of weeks ago i thought it was changing...that i actually was getting better and happy for real....but that was just imagination i guess...cause this saturday I got sad again...i understood that ive actually started to like a guy...who wasent my ex boyfriend...and i thought that was great im finally moving on...and maybe this is right maybe this thing could work...but NOO
I think im not meent to be happy...i think im not meent to have a boyfriend or someone who likes me..i think im just supposed to be friend with everyone or not everyone but a few.....
i should be alone...forever and not even try to get anything started and that what im going to do now....
Im sick of being left when i think that it could work and i start to show how i feel...im sick of guys telling me that i dont have to be scared cause they wont hurt me....im sick of them SICK SICK SICK...i dont want anything to do with them
i feel alone so alone and all i want to do is scream and cry...ive been walking around like a zombie today..and all i want to do is crawl down in my bed and stay there for ever.....im going to do that when i come home to Sweden...I never wanted to go to Sweden before but now i cant wait to go home,....to my bed to my tv and just stay there.....im so tired i just want to sleep and turn back time a couple of years...like 6 then i would do so many different things......
But yeah...im back in sqaure one...but now im never going to let my self be fooled again....no more guys no more anything just...something els
Barbeque tonight
Hellooo!!
Yesterday i was out with Shayne and Juan from my school...first we were at Juans place and played music and drank beer...around 23.30 we went to the dax:)..it was funny
We meet Asja the first thing we did and she is so sweet:)..hehe and she was a bit drunk to;P...And after 2 minutes we meet Basti, justus and Björn:)..
we got our free drink (you have to pay 5 euro to get in but when you do that you get a free drink;P) and then went Shayne and Juan home:(..Juan had to go up early today to work and Juan was going to paris...
so i hang around with the guys:)
It was really funny took some pics that ill show you later:)
and today then:)..Im going to take a shower in a few minutes...then im going to buy some beer and then im going to Empelde and see all of the guys and barbeque:)..its going to be great....were going to be att bastis garden:)...
its me Basti, Björn, Justus, Asja, Steffi and Robin i think:)...drink beer and just have fun:)
its my last weekend here for like a month im going to miss them all!! but ill be back:)
And when ill get back louise is coming and that will be fun:)
hope my sister can come soon too!!
And in a week ill be in Graz with my Sweetie:)..Yaaaayy!!
Bye tschus
(my Aunt told me on thursday that she really can see that i learnd so much german here cause i write so much better now and i can talk better and read books like really good yaay)
Yesterday i was out with Shayne and Juan from my school...first we were at Juans place and played music and drank beer...around 23.30 we went to the dax:)..it was funny
We meet Asja the first thing we did and she is so sweet:)..hehe and she was a bit drunk to;P...And after 2 minutes we meet Basti, justus and Björn:)..
we got our free drink (you have to pay 5 euro to get in but when you do that you get a free drink;P) and then went Shayne and Juan home:(..Juan had to go up early today to work and Juan was going to paris...
so i hang around with the guys:)
It was really funny took some pics that ill show you later:)
and today then:)..Im going to take a shower in a few minutes...then im going to buy some beer and then im going to Empelde and see all of the guys and barbeque:)..its going to be great....were going to be att bastis garden:)...
its me Basti, Björn, Justus, Asja, Steffi and Robin i think:)...drink beer and just have fun:)
its my last weekend here for like a month im going to miss them all!! but ill be back:)
And when ill get back louise is coming and that will be fun:)
hope my sister can come soon too!!
And in a week ill be in Graz with my Sweetie:)..Yaaaayy!!
Bye tschus
(my Aunt told me on thursday that she really can see that i learnd so much german here cause i write so much better now and i can talk better and read books like really good yaay)
Christmas spirit!
Helloooo!!
So i found the books yesterday but when we came to the library it was closed:P...ofcourse.....so we went to the weihnachtsmark and wir haben mit das karusell gefarhen...it was funny at least M was happy:)...
And then we went home...then R and C came home..
Basti picked me up and we went to Björns place we drank bierchen..goooood:)..and we looked at fussball and yeah!! nothing much a fun night!
Today I was at school boring as usual..she is so slow so the last 30 minutes i always get really tired!;P...But today i wrote a text about mein zukunft...i dont know if i wrote that good with all the grammar and the spelling but:)...i think she understand what i want to do:)...i wrote about my planes to go to asia and study to be a fireman!!..
After school i went to hauptbahnhof mit Shayne...we ate nutella crepe..and how good isnt that?!?! JUMMY....and lots of nutella on it mmm im going to make some when I get to sweden...if i can find any nutella;P..and then we went shopping or i did.;P...i bought a present for my sister and for my dad...then i bought 2 tops for my self ofcourse...aaaa i never learn...i shouldnt buy anything for my self now...but;P..i wanted it:P...so im not going to buy anything next week...i think i will look for more xmas presents in Graz when i go there and the last week in Hannover...and maybe when i get to Sweden...if im not to tired but i dont think so:)
And tomorrow im of..i actually got today off to and thats great:)
So tomorrow im just going to sleep and then im going out with Juan and Shayne yaay:)..its going to be so much fun..and hopefully Basti and everyone els comes to the Dax so ill see them there:)..
and on saturday were talking about barbeque:P...in december but;P..haha what to do!?
and today C is going to parents meating?!..so I have to put my cousins to bed tonight and try to get them to sleep OMY....hahaha hope it turns out well!!
Bye for now:)
So i found the books yesterday but when we came to the library it was closed:P...ofcourse.....so we went to the weihnachtsmark and wir haben mit das karusell gefarhen...it was funny at least M was happy:)...
And then we went home...then R and C came home..
Basti picked me up and we went to Björns place we drank bierchen..goooood:)..and we looked at fussball and yeah!! nothing much a fun night!
Today I was at school boring as usual..she is so slow so the last 30 minutes i always get really tired!;P...But today i wrote a text about mein zukunft...i dont know if i wrote that good with all the grammar and the spelling but:)...i think she understand what i want to do:)...i wrote about my planes to go to asia and study to be a fireman!!..
After school i went to hauptbahnhof mit Shayne...we ate nutella crepe..and how good isnt that?!?! JUMMY....and lots of nutella on it mmm im going to make some when I get to sweden...if i can find any nutella;P..and then we went shopping or i did.;P...i bought a present for my sister and for my dad...then i bought 2 tops for my self ofcourse...aaaa i never learn...i shouldnt buy anything for my self now...but;P..i wanted it:P...so im not going to buy anything next week...i think i will look for more xmas presents in Graz when i go there and the last week in Hannover...and maybe when i get to Sweden...if im not to tired but i dont think so:)
And tomorrow im of..i actually got today off to and thats great:)
So tomorrow im just going to sleep and then im going out with Juan and Shayne yaay:)..its going to be so much fun..and hopefully Basti and everyone els comes to the Dax so ill see them there:)..
and on saturday were talking about barbeque:P...in december but;P..haha what to do!?
and today C is going to parents meating?!..so I have to put my cousins to bed tonight and try to get them to sleep OMY....hahaha hope it turns out well!!
Bye for now:)
English
Since im in Germany and cant write or talk german i think i should learn how to write in english!
I know that my sister will write to me when she sees a mistake;P...so maybe i learn something!!
And i think ive been reading my sweeties blog to much;P...
And now i have to go i have to get my cousin:)...were going to the library!!
O shit where are thw books?!?!
KEINE ANUNG:O
bye
I know that my sister will write to me when she sees a mistake;P...so maybe i learn something!!
And i think ive been reading my sweeties blog to much;P...
And now i have to go i have to get my cousin:)...were going to the library!!
O shit where are thw books?!?!
KEINE ANUNG:O
bye
